Hello my friends.
Yesterday, I had an unusual day at the coast. I have a friend from childhood who married into high society. We had lunch at her Yacht Club and then went to see her “boat.” The “boat” turned out to be a huge, lovely yacht. My friend and I and 7 or 8 other friends from grammar school will be spending three or four days together in September on the yacht. Every year, we try and spend some time together, somewhere.
Driving up the mountain on my way home, I was thinking, once again, about how The Beings are always telling me to accept my own nature. Whenever I am whining around about my perceived faults, I hear Them say, “Accept Your Nature.”
I am finally beginning to do this and it brings a huge sense of freedom into my life. When my sisters say, “Oh, you like to direct everything!” Instead of feeling bad about this I say, “Yep. I do. It’s my nature.” And, I grin. This puzzles my family. How can I be so happy about my failings? After all, we all “know” it’s our job in life to learn how to become a better person than we are.
A few days ago, my sister Polly came to see me. She was sitting on my couch, showing me her arm which was having a massive, dripping poison oak attack. As she spoke, she rested the goo on the armrest. I said, “Eeek! Get that arm off my couch, you know how horribly allergic I am. I get poison oak for months!”
Polly was put out. As she told all my sisters, later, “She didn’t even care about me, all she could think about was herself!”
Yep. That’s me. Pretty darn self-absorbed and I admitted that to them with a grin. Again, they just looked at me and muttered about why didn’t I even act guilty about the rotten display of my character.
Why not? Because The Beings tell us we are all God and that God is perfect. They say that we are all God having experiences and to accept whatever it is that God is expressing and experiencing. Which can sound rather cold and amoral if you haven’t listened to the “God Is Always Happy CDs” and gotten the fuller picture.
If I don’t like my behavior, I can change it. But, right now, I am enjoying the freedom of no longer hating myself and beating myself for being less then perfect in society’s eyes. I am busy being and showing my colorful, pissy side to myself and to other people. I’m not pretending I am nicer than I am and that is a relief. I can feel the tension and stress of being such a good girl all the time, just draining out of me.
Back to driving up the mountain. I was thinking about accepting my nature when The Beings spoke to me, saying “Go from accepting Your Own Nature and the FREEDOM in that, to accepting all life; to accepting everything that IS. Revel in Your Own Nature and revel in all that IS. This means accepting life in ALL its aspects. The so-called good and the so-called bad. Accept LIFE’S NATURE, then everything once ugly becomes beautiful in Your eyes because You see through God’s eyes.”
More and more I feel this freedom that is real and exists for all of us, once we drop old beliefs that we have carried and thought were ours. And what will we find in the “end?” Perfection. The true perfection that is God, expressing Itself and having experiences.
Later:
I drove into the back-country today to a famous artist’s studio, to consult with one of his apprentices who is making a round stained glass window for my art room.
Coming home, driving through the rolling golden fields and irregular groves of oak trees I heard “After You have reveled in Your “unpleasant” (personality) aspects and what You consider Your finer ones, the next step is to let it all go. Let any personal interest in Your Nature, go. Go from accepting Your Own Nature and the freedom in that, to accepting all life; accepting everything that IS. Revel in Your Own Nature and revel in all that IS. Release all abiding interest and simply be God; perfect and at home with Itself.”